My sister called me today.  She really needed me.  I'm the oldest of four.  It's important that I'm reachable, supportive, and empathetic.  She told me her secret.  My parents would freak.  I love her, I do. I'm supportive, I am. I'm there, I'm always there.  I prayed for her. I support her. I hate that I can't take the pain away, that I can't solve her problems Consequences have actions.  They're not always good. I told her, just do what is right, I'm proud of you for doing right She talks about dad. I don't know what dad would say He would say pat yourself on the back, he's right you should I promise her things will work out I honestly don't know if they will work out I remind her she has a village, she has a community, she has love I hope love is enough I hope what I can give is enough I love you, I am sorry, life throws curveballs Here we are <3 

I have been stressing about homework, getting my baby's first birthday party together, and starting to pack so we can move. Today I accomplished SO MUCH! I deep cleaned the house and lit a candle, and drank a warm beverage. I completed one and half of three papers I have been wanting to finish this week. I also sent out birthday invitations for my son's party. I still haven't started packing, but I think I am going to start that on Thursday. I am so proud of myself! I can feel the stress rolling off my shoulders! Tonight I am celebrating with a glass of wine, a warm blanket, and some Netflix (: Don't forget to celebrate ALL accomplishments, no matter how big or small!

Little nosey baby always trying to sit on moms lap, watch out, he'll steal all your snacks! First go your yogurt, pancakes, and raspberry tart,  then he takes your love, snuggles, and heart.  Little nosey baby always exploring the sphere Stop, slow down, I whisper in your ear I can't hold in how proud of you I am,  I'm in awe of your learning, my sweet little ham Little nosey baby, you'll always be my bright light My sun in the sky, you shine so bright I'll cherish these frustrations, these long days and nights too, I'll store them in my memory because I know they'll be missed, much too soon.

Still not feeling the best. But, I'm definitely feeling better. All I can think about is my to-do list for next week. Maybe I'm crazy. But, I'm excited to start packing, moving, finish up homework and relax. I'm hoping I can squeeze in a shopping trip to Target! Once I'm rested and well, I'll be ready to take on the world.

Fever. Chills. Nausea. Prior obligations calling my name. Makeup. Hair. Clothes. I'm out the door, just praying I don't throw up. 

The sun is shining, not a cloud in the sky. The wind is gently blowing to ward off the heat of a Texas sun. My boy is smiling, playing, and exploring a new-found world. Life is simple. Life is full. Life is complete. I love watching his wondrous eyes. He picks up a pine cone and tries to eat it. I stop him, although I'm sure we've all done this at some point in our lives Life is beautiful Life is warm Life is delightful My sweet Peter Pan,  Please never grow up 

Don't get me wrong, I have a good life. I have a loving fiance and a healthy bright-eyed baby. None the less, I still have my struggles. I struggle with motivation for completing my degree. Sometimes I wish I could stay home and be one of those fun stay at home moms that takes their young kids out to do activities and explore. Then it hits me, but with what money or friends? My only close mom friend lives miles away. I live in Texas and she lives in North Dakota. It is SO HARD finding a mom friend that you can still have differences with but neither of you really cares what they are. We formed our friendship before we were pregnant before she was married and before I was engaged. I was in her wedding and she will be in mine. I was the first person she told when she found out she was pregnant and when I found out I was pregnant, she was the first person I told. We're so crazy, we talked about finding a nice mountain in Colorado and building our houses next to each other. Our s...