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Life throws curveballs



My sister called me today. 
She really needed me. 
I'm the oldest of four. 
It's important that I'm reachable, supportive, and empathetic. 
She told me her secret. 
My parents would freak. 
I love her, I do. I'm supportive, I am. I'm there, I'm always there. 
I prayed for her.
I support her.
I hate that I can't take the pain away, that I can't solve her problems
Consequences have actions. 
They're not always good.
I told her, just do what is right, I'm proud of you for doing right
She talks about dad.
I don't know what dad would say
He would say pat yourself on the back, he's right you should
I promise her things will work out
I honestly don't know if they will work out
I remind her she has a village, she has a community, she has love
I hope love is enough
I hope what I can give is enough
I love you, I am sorry, life throws curveballs


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Here we are <3 

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  1. Red EmmaMarch 12, 2020 at 7:22 AM

    Whew! Being the oldest does press those responsibilities on one (i say as the oldest of only three). I hope your sister's secret isn't putting her in danger and that she can get help from other sources as well as you. Here's wishing the best for both of you. And welcome to the SOL challenge--writing every day, not matter what it is, can only help. As one member of my writing group used to say, keep writing..

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